9 o'clock in the morning, ive been up all night again lolz
just finished implementing all the wizard skills and touched up the graphics
im really happy with how these skill tree graphics are turning out, this shit had been making me anxious for a while
when it comes to 3d art im super into it, i have a lot of fun and never worry about whether it will come out bad or not.
but with these 2d icons i am aimlessly trial-and-error guessing, with hardly any sense of technique
before i start an icon sometimes i think "oh this would be cool with a foot or a sword or something" and then dozens of attempts to draw what i want, slowly becomes me just playing around with shapes and filters, and then magically i find something that just works (usually by accident)
i keep trying to make gifs but forget the framerate kinda ruins it
on a related note im also a bit nervous about drawing additional 2d characters, i have like thirty ideas for enemies and npcs
but for that, i plan on really getting in the zone with pencil and paper, right after i finish all this coding and UI stuff
(all my UI art is done with mouse and keyboard)
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When I graduated last year and wanted to kill myself, I called my elementary school art teacher (we still keep in touch.)
She let me spend a few days at her house, fed me some great meals, and shared stories about tough times from when she was young.
And her husband took me to my first "al-anon" meeting after calling out my angry man-child father for being an abusive alcoholic.
We went to her studio, which is like this little air conditioned building full of art supplies in her backyard.
She painted something for her husband as a valentines gift, and suggested that I paint some thank you notes for all my graduation gifts so that there would be one less source of stress on me, which was a good idea.
I had been hesitant about these thank you notes for a couple months, because I was still bitter about my education being botched at a shitty school in a degenerate town.
After staring at the blank folded cards for a while, I decided I really wanted to go bob ross some trees, even though I was sure it would look like shit.
When high school ended, there was no reason for me to keep doodling, so i hadn't done anything artistic non-digitally in like a decade.
My first few attempts looked like 5th grader me drew them, but by #8 I was in the fucking zone.
I hope this happens again when I revisit the character art for this RPG. If I can tap into an aesthetic that quickly again and stick with it, I'll be so happy.
My teacher and her husband were pretty mad when I later still tried to kill myself, in spite of all their hospitality and support. I ended up giving them a thank you card made from this one, my favorite tree.
I painted all of these using a tiny piece of triangular scrap wood I found on the floor