Divine Blessing
Scholar
the initial moments after an extended period (standard: 10-14h) of sleep always collapse in the bitter insight of already-played-em-all (RPGs). over the next 7-11h of my work-out schedule (perfomance athlete) i analytically recall (and rank) the titles of my RPG career - always to the ever-same conclusion: fukkin played em all.
not a satisfying conclusion, one, that escalates in the bitter despair of something essentially missing (no, its not a deficite on females, as my Ex visited a fews day ago to reconnect (again), iam a model, my life is a catwalk and (female) audience is everywhere, esp. gymn), an existential crisis in my (as now discovered nihilistic) future prognosis on the genre: there is no fukking RPG to play.
despair is not a condition worth living, so post work-out i usually browse the media (while serving myself a 3h menu) for a small hint on innovation to ascend into a new perspective on the meaning of life or at least regain my personal purpose. always with the same result: fukkin played em all.
RPG culture grew a conservative echo-chamber, the debates on Codex as self-proclaimed RPG Bohemia r trivial re-reviews of reddit memes (derriere-garde per se) - there isnt any (relevant, as innovative) progress in the genre since Souls. those 10 years feel like a life-time sentence, esp. as there is no innovation on the horizon, no new systems to gamble, no new worlds to explore (dont dare to try to convince me Outer Worlds is a new world to explore, aesthetics r Kingdom of Amalur as Sci-Fi), no new stories to transcend - the genres design, the reward loops, its settings and narratives (yeah, C&C never happened) feel like Manic Street Preachers Motorcycle Emptiness on Auto-Repeat.
pls falsify me, counter-prove me, pls unbreak my heart, bring back the joy of Dungeon Master, Bards Tale, Deus Ex, Fallout, Daggerfall, Throne of Baal, Gothic, Wizardry 8, Vampire 2, Ultima VII, System Shock 2 etc., but i simply cant feel it (prognostically) in Cyberpunk 2077, Vampire 3 etc., as their teasers empirically feel like sex with the Ex...
so am i doomed to an eternity of RPG sobriety, like being sentenced to replay WoW over and over again?
iam going to serve me a 7. dish, as tomorrow will VTOL with 5h Heavy Duty block and another argumentation on why i cant install Kenshi (again), but maybe i simply dont wake-up, as lucid dreams r so much more Vanilla Skies than this (fukkin conservative) RPG genre...
not a satisfying conclusion, one, that escalates in the bitter despair of something essentially missing (no, its not a deficite on females, as my Ex visited a fews day ago to reconnect (again), iam a model, my life is a catwalk and (female) audience is everywhere, esp. gymn), an existential crisis in my (as now discovered nihilistic) future prognosis on the genre: there is no fukking RPG to play.
despair is not a condition worth living, so post work-out i usually browse the media (while serving myself a 3h menu) for a small hint on innovation to ascend into a new perspective on the meaning of life or at least regain my personal purpose. always with the same result: fukkin played em all.
RPG culture grew a conservative echo-chamber, the debates on Codex as self-proclaimed RPG Bohemia r trivial re-reviews of reddit memes (derriere-garde per se) - there isnt any (relevant, as innovative) progress in the genre since Souls. those 10 years feel like a life-time sentence, esp. as there is no innovation on the horizon, no new systems to gamble, no new worlds to explore (dont dare to try to convince me Outer Worlds is a new world to explore, aesthetics r Kingdom of Amalur as Sci-Fi), no new stories to transcend - the genres design, the reward loops, its settings and narratives (yeah, C&C never happened) feel like Manic Street Preachers Motorcycle Emptiness on Auto-Repeat.
pls falsify me, counter-prove me, pls unbreak my heart, bring back the joy of Dungeon Master, Bards Tale, Deus Ex, Fallout, Daggerfall, Throne of Baal, Gothic, Wizardry 8, Vampire 2, Ultima VII, System Shock 2 etc., but i simply cant feel it (prognostically) in Cyberpunk 2077, Vampire 3 etc., as their teasers empirically feel like sex with the Ex...
so am i doomed to an eternity of RPG sobriety, like being sentenced to replay WoW over and over again?
iam going to serve me a 7. dish, as tomorrow will VTOL with 5h Heavy Duty block and another argumentation on why i cant install Kenshi (again), but maybe i simply dont wake-up, as lucid dreams r so much more Vanilla Skies than this (fukkin conservative) RPG genre...
