Completed Katawa Shoujo: I love you just the way you are...

[RK47]

Music: Anxious Heart

As usual, I'm early. Mutou is fiddling with folders and papers on his desk as he prepares for the day while a handful of students mill about, chatting away.

While my feelings about Lilly haven't dissipated, far from it, her mention of my exam performance did remind me that I have my own life's journey to attend to.

After thinking about it, I have realized that I do genuinely want to pursue science in some form as a career, rather than it simply being the path of least resistance.

Until now though, I didn't have much of an idea where in the field I wanted to go. Just "science" is a pretty broad category of jobs.

ED: Heart specialist? Nuclear scientist?

Something Lilly mentioned earlier focused my thoughts. Something I'd only idly pondered about before, I'd not seriously considered following this specific path.

I walk up to Mutou's desk, his attention too focused on preparing for the day's lessons to notice my approach. It's the same every day.

Good morning.

He looks up with an expression of mild surprise that's quickly replaced by his typical awkward smile.

Do you mind if I ask you something?

He looks down at his messy pile of books on the desk, before putting down the papers in his hand and standing up with some difficulty to properly address me.

That's what I'm here for, after all. Ask away.

I was just wondering... what would you say is the motivation behind teaching?

ED: You want to be a teacher?

He thinks on this question for a few moments before responding, evidently far from having a prepared answer.

If you talk to ten different teachers, I think you'll get ten different answers to that question.

While I can only speak for myself, I'd say that I teach because... hmm...

He sinks into thought again, carefully assessing the way he wishes to present his idea.

Think of it this way; when you were a child, you probably played with sticks and pebbles in moving water such as the gutter or puddles, right?

Yeah. I think a lot of people do that when they're young.

Well, it's not just when they're young for some, though it does take on another form. My point is, though, that when one is doing that, they're curious about how the water will flow or be changed.

Everyone, even at that young age, possesses an intense wonderment about how the world around them works, even in its smallest forms.

I still feel that sense of wonderment about the universe. Even just reading about new discoveries or classic experiments gives me a renewed sense of awe at how marvelous everything is, from the farthest stars to the smallest puddle.

I just hope that I can give others even a small piece of that wonderment I feel.

He scratches his head as he mentally reviews what he's said.

I feel like I understand him better now. Even if he's awkward around others, he does have a genuine want to be around them and offer them a piece of his self that he values.

What Lilly told me yesterday rings in my ears. "I think you get on well with others," huh. She always did say I was unusually curious...

Sorry if that was a little meandering. Does it answer your question?

It does, thank you.

I also had another question, actually.

Oh? What might that be?

Um.. do you have any college brochures or guides? It's about time I started getting some applications in.

He nods and bends down to look inside his desk. As he does so, I notice that he is wearing a remarkably genuine smile. I don't think I've ever really seen him act this natural around others.

Perhaps this isn't Mutou, the teacher, but rather Mutou, the person.

Here. If you need any more, feel free to ask.

He hands me about half a dozen brochures and booklets of various colors and sizes, which I take eagerly.
Yes, it will be this information which I'll use to forge my own future. I think now, after all this time and all these trials, I can finally start to see the big picture of my life ahead of me.

My body may be like this, but my mind is still very much able.

Thank you.

 

[RK47]

Music: Flowers Blooming in the Church

I swirl around gently the tea in my cup, the reflected image of my face becoming distorted by the moving liquid.

ED:

Deep.

Maybe I'm thinking too much.

ED: Well don't. You hardly have any interesting thoughts.

The familiar sound of china rattling from a teacup touching an accompanying saucer rings out.

Is something the matter?

ED: Eh...you tell me, Lilly. What was that losing cool after bumping with Kenji about?

Don't worry, it's nothing.

ED: Always with the "nothing."

I take a long sip of the tea in front of me as the girls do.

So how's your work in the newspaper club going, Hanako?

I want to know too, it sounds like it would be quite interesting.

Hanako's face turns down at the attention placed upon her, though her smile belies the fact that she genuinely likes being the center of interest for the two of us.

It's... good. I think I'm getting better at it.

Naomi and a couple of her friends handle most of the jobs...getting stories and stuff.

I just do the computer things, like putting the stories together and getting it printed. I-it's nice, since I can sit and concentrate.

ED: Sounds like best thread ever.

I see Lilly's low-tech nature isn't shared by Hanako. While sitting in a room compiling other people's newspaper articles into documents doesn't strike me as overly outgoing, it is heartening to see her widening her circle of friends.

ED: Yeah, unlike some asshole we know who only sticks with like...four girls and a guy.

Baby steps, I guess. It's probably a bit much to be expecting her to become a socialite like Lilly.

How are you finding Naomi? I've heard she can be quite troublesome at times.

And Lilly's going into her mothering mode over Hanako. Letting go of her is something she's had to learn.
Hanako scratches her cheek, thinking on her answer.

Naomi's... nice. She's a bit loud sometimes, and a bit tiring, but she's really helpful. Her friends are nice, too.

That's wonderful to hear, Hanako. I'm glad you've found a source of such enjoyment.

Lilly's smile is warm and genuine, but I can sense a touch of wistfulness to it as well. Hanako seems to miss that entirely, but I don't think for a second that I'm imagining it.

ED: So proud of you, Lil' Bacon. Sniff..

I suppose it's because I've slowly come to pay more and more attention to everything going on around me. With things seemingly happening faster and faster, it feels like I'll miss something if I'm not as observant as possible.

ED: Yeah, we're headed towards the end. Y'know. It's almost a month.

With the exams, my new-found love life, trying to fit in some studying regarding my options for college and university, and my heart condition applying the brakes on everything at irritatingly random times, my brain's been in overdrive recently.

It makes me appreciate the rare quiet times such as these.

I guess this is why Lilly came to appreciate her weekly walks to the convenience store and her tea parties with Hanako, despite her like of being surrounded by others; they gave her a moment of peace in a chaotic and busy life.

ED: Kinda like me and my computer.

Thank god the exams are over, eh?

The comment draws an earnest chuckle from both of the girls. It seems like everybody's been a lot happier since the exams ended, last week.

So what are you doing for the summer holidays, Hanako? Only...

I quickly count the days in my head. Today's Monday, and school finishes on Saturday...

...five days to go, after all.

I was thinking of... travelling. Just...around a bit.

There's a lot of places I want to see, and... I think I have enough money to pay for the bus and train rides. Naomi and one of the other girls in the newspaper club said they might come along, too.

ED: Amazing change. What brought this change, I wonder?

Her look indicates she's given the matter quite a lot of thought. I'm kind of surprised that she's contemplating something like this.

It seems she's really become intent on striking out on her own.

Is there anywhere in particular you're thinking of going?

I was thinking that... Kyoto sounds nice. I-I think I'll try to go to a few places... though.

Lilly nods in approval, happy with Hanako's plans.

ED: What about you two, man?

ED: Come on. She's not that type to plan for last minute changes. I'm sure she's set on becoming a teacher.

Every time it comes up in conversation, it feels like she's either unsure of herself or simply dodging the question. It's troubling.

ED: If it troubles you, then you should try to clear the matter.

Be sure to call sometime while you're out and about. I gave you my number before, right?

Hanako gives a quick nod, a happy smile on her face.

It's strange to see how happy people seem to become when they have a goal to work towards. Yuuko seems to brighten whenever her university aspirations are brought up, and now Hanako is just the same.

ED: Eh, I think you're partly to blame/thank for her change. Maybe...she wants to give Lilly some space.

So why do I still feel this uncertainty? And why Lilly, too?

ED: Cause you never confronted her on certain matters? Like that morning when she lost her cool? Women don't work like that, Hisao.

Relationships can be irritatingly troublesome, sometimes.

ED: Only if you let it do so.

Oh, um...wh-what time is it?

Hmm? Oh...

It takes me a second to remember that Lilly's clock doesn't have any visual feedback. I really should know, given how many times I've been in her room.

Nevertheless, I take my watch from my bag and quickly check it, the reason for her asking becoming clear.

ED: Rerun of "Friends" on TV?

It's about twenty past ten. Nearly curfew.

Hanako rises to her feet, dusting herself off and neatening her gown after doing so.

I'd... better be going, then. Good night Lilly, Hisao.

Sleep well, Hanako.

Seeya tomorrow.

With that, she walks to the door and quietly makes her exit.

...

ED:

Time for sex?

 

[Hirato]

ED:

Time for sex?

I think so.
If it's the one I think it is, it's perfect for an "audio diary" entry.

 

[RK47]

This seems to be happening more and more between Lilly and I, recently. After a few seconds, I finally find something to talk about.

Oh yeah, I talked to Mutou on Friday, and finally checked out some guides on college and how to apply for it.

That's good news. If you're going to be apply for colleges, I assume you have some idea in mind of what you might do in the future?

I think I've settled on becoming a science teacher. It's going to take a while to get through university and everything to be qualified, but I think it'll be worth it.

Lilly's face brightens considerably at the news. I suppose, with her wish to become a teacher, she's delighted I'd take the same kind of path.

So you've decided on a career of teaching...

I think that path suits you most excellently, Hisao.

I smile and nod. This time, even if I know she can't see me doing so, I know she feels it.

I imagine Mutou would have taken to the news well?

That's one word for it.

ED: You should really ask about that morning incident.

Hey Lilly?

Yes?

I know you want to be a teacher, but...

For a second, I wonder whether I should really ask her the question on my mind, but that's quickly brushed aside by the fact that this is rather late to have second thoughts.

ED: Not that you fool!

Surely you don't think I'd be offended by something regarding my blindness.

Her accusing tone is betrayed by her grinning face, amused at my awkwardness in raising the topic. Some things never change.

Good point, I guess.

I was just thinking whether or not being blind would be a hinderance, what with your ambitions to become a teacher and all.

She looks mildly surprised before giving the question some thoughts. I refuse to think she's never actually pondered this issue before.

I wonder... Hisao, could you close your eyes for a moment?

O...kay?

Raising an eyebrow, I do as she requests.

ED: Man, you're going to get it. Hope your force vision is good enough.

I have no idea what she has in mind, and my questions only increase as I peek out from one eye.

I suddenly click on to her intentions as I feel the black strip make contact with my face, wrapping around my head and over my eyes.

Um...what exactly is this for?

ED: I thought you caught on already? :facepalm:

It's a little test, Hisao. Since you seem to be wondering, I'll let you see things as I do for a time.

Huh, so thats' what this is about.

To be honest, this actually sounds kind of fun. Childish and rather silly to anyone who would be watching, but a bit of silly fun never hurt anyone.

ED: Riiiight. Looking forward to bumping heads with the wall.

I stand up with a heave, my hands quickly moving out in front of me to warn me of any obstacles.

Okay, now what?

Now, touch me.

ED: Updated my journal.

If you say so. Now then...

I slowly make my way forward, towards the sound of Lilly's voice.

My walking speed could barely even be called a shuffle, the entire experience feeling alien enough that I don't want to risk inadvertently tripping over anything, such as her table or her haphazard piles of books.

Something soft, yet solid, brushes against my left leg. Further inspection reveals it to be Lilly's bed.

I move onward, finding myself thankful that Lilly's room is so neat and tidy. Even the piles of books she has are generally kept close to the wall, well out of harm's way.

The hard wall pressing against my outstretched hands makes me furrow my brow in frustration.

ED: Problem?

Hey Lilly, where are you?

What are you doing over there? I'm over here.

Lilly's voice comes from the other side of the room, far from where it was before, even to my untrained ears. If she's going out of her way to avoid me reaching her, then is this just a game to her?

ED: I think shes' trying to prove that she's better than you at this 'vision disadvantage' thing you were talking about.

... Of course it is. Compared to a life where even the concept of sight is an abstract one, a few minutes in a blindfold are nothing.

I guess she's made her point; she's more than capable of navigating her room, and further, I've seen how independent she is even when compared to many of the others in Yamaku.

Well, even if this is just a game, I ma as well play it wholeheartedly.

With a pace much quicker than before I move towards the source of her voice, deftly sidestepping the table in the center of her room thanks to remembering its position.

I've got you now!

She gives an impish giggle, one just long enough to work out that she's passing just beside me.

I quickly turn around to face the new directio- *BUMP!* the table wasn't there before!

Ow... ow... ow....

I slowly sit up next to the table, raising my blindfold as I rub my aching head.

I give an irritated kick to the table that's sitting just in front of where I fell. Utterly pointless, but the thing deserved it.

Hisao?

Lilly's still standing just to my side, obviously unsure what's befallen me.

Sorry. I kinda fell over.

Are you hurt?

My head hurts, but I think I'm okay. I think the table moved in order to trip me over.

She giggles as she walks over and takes a seat beside me, her hand resting on my own.

I suppose that's the end of that then?

ED: Yup. Absolutely.

I think so.

But I also think I get the point. Though I do wish it hadn't involved such a headache.

Lilly suddenly looks blank.

Point?

ED: Wow? The lesson in blindness?

And I return an extraordinarily flat look.

That was just for fun?

I just thought it might ease you up a little about the subject. You always seem to tiptoe around it, after all.

In regard to teaching, sight isn't that important. There are plenty of classes taught by entirely blind teachers, and more than enough resources for me to learn the subject.

ED: Guess you know more than I do.

It's as simple as that, really.

I slump my shoulders and give a snort of amusement.

Yeah, I understand. I guess we'll both just have to work hard to reach our goals, then.

Hmm...

What is it?

With a little hesitation, Lilly pushes forward her chin and closes her eyes in an unmistakable gesture.

I accept gladly, our lips touching. As they do, I suddenly feel her hand snaking up my chest from underneath my shirt. The feeling of her hand against my bare skin is enough to make my heart suddenly accelerate.

ED: Looks like bonus round's just started.

Well, I'm hardly one to complain. She does genuinely like this, and even with all my medications, my libido is thankfully still intact.

ED: I'm more worried whether your heart can take the exertions, Hisao, but what do I know?

I lean into the kiss further, holding her hand tightly as I feel it tracing the contours of my chest.

Eventually we break off from one another, the room silent but for our breathing.

Hey, Hisao?

Yeah?

I don't suppose... you could wear the blindfold again?

ED:

Her tentative suggestion takes me by surprise.

I suppose she wants to introduce me to sex through her eyes as well. Or just wants to find out what I'll be like during the act while hampered by the blindfold.

ED: RK47 brofists this.

With a measure of unease tempered by curiosity, I do as she says and lowers the blindfold over my eyes.

The world becomes dark once again.

 

[Monoclebear]

Lilly is best human.

 

[Haba]

Spoiler

 

[Damned Registrations]

I predict much raging in/over the following updates.

 

[Oriebam]

hey is this the game where you shit over a cripple's chest

did you guys already get to that scene

 

[Random]

Interesting. Guess you're exploring new horizons, RK47. Too bad the quality of the VN dropped, but it is an amateur work so it's not so bad all things considered.

 

[The Vault Dweller]

Spoiler

Codex ending.

Interesting. Guess you're exploring new horizons, RK47. Too bad the quality of the VN dropped, but it is an amateur work so it's not so bad all things considered.

Remember it was not only developed by a group of people with no experience at making games, but they also did it for free.

Sincerely,
The Vault Dweller

 

[RK47]

I don't really hate the game overall. But this playthrough gets draggy at some parts, especially Hokkaido arc. Hopefully we've moved on past those. Tonight's update going to be a little risqué side, I guess. And yes, I am aware of the game's indie status of Western made visual novel. A world first?

 

[Random]

It's just a shame that they chose to keep the setting and culture that of Japan, instead of taking their opportunity to set it in an English-speaking country.

 

[RK47]

Music: Who am I?

I finally reached home, extremely tired. Budget this, budget that. The incessant bombardment of demands from my boss echoes in my head. Tomorrow, the battle resumes. But for now...respite.
But I did something out of the ordinary today... what is this feeling?

What am I...carrying? A box? I slowly set it down in front of my desktop, pushing the keyboard aside before opening it.

A flash of memory at work. And it became clear.

Happy birthday, Lilly.

I remembered.

 

[lightbane]

 

[Kz3r0]

 

[TheEntitledOne]

Just what the codex needed. Did you also get one of those pillows with the chick's face on it? (with a pocket pussy on it)

 

[Hirato]

Oh god!
RK47 is turning into one of those crazy otaku!

Save yourself RK47-chan! Do not make out with the screen!
I repeat: Do not make out with the screen bearing Lilly's image!

 

[Darth Roxor]

 

[CappenVarra]

RK47, never forget that qualified medical assistance is available.

 

[Johannes]

So sweet of you

 

[RK47]

I really need to get more used to contact like this. Even after the weeks we've been going out, it isn't as natural for me as it is for her.

...Silence?

Hey, Lilly...

Shh.

I obediently follow her instruction and quietly listen, trying to make out something, anything that's happening around me.

Compared to before when I was chasing her, the need to carefully navigate the room's obstacles now gone, I can take my time and concentrate much harder on listening.

It takes a while, but I can eventually pick out the soft sound of her breathing in the otherwise dead silent room.

In... out... in... out...

Measuring it against my own breathing, I realize it's definitely deeper than normal, especially for her.

Another sound makes its way around to my ears, one that I can't identify immediately. I don't think I've heard it before, but...

My heart skips a beat as I realize the source, my hand almost reflexively reaching out towards it. Her face feels softer than usual under my touch, her head just barely turning in acknowledgement towards the fingers on her cheek.

Hisao...

I gulp and take a moment to try and calm down. I need all the concentration I can muster while I'm like this in order to fully take in my surroundings.

After a few deep breaths, I think I've managed to collect myself. With a touch so light that it wouldn't disturb a feather, I start to move my hand down her body.

...and I can feel myself losing focus again, thanks to those thin silken pajamas of hers resting so perfectly over the curves of her body.

If she's like this, then that means she has to be sitting against her bed and facing me. Now, to continue.

...All right, this must be her hip. If I just move slowly downwards...

Lilly's breath catches as my hand comes over hers, tentatively following her fingers between her legs and losing them as they go underneath her underwear.

The cake...

Just the slightest moisture touches my fingertips, but it's enough to easily work out what she's doing.

My mind suddenly fills with visions of what she must be like in front of me now. I'd never even imagined her doing this before, and being unable to see her doing the act only enhances the mood.

I work the blindfold upwards, brushing out my eyes a couple of hairs that were stuck to the ribbon before.

Music: Icarus

For a period of time I can only guess at, my mind goes completely blank. All I can do is stare at my newly-freed eyes take in everything in front of them.

Just as I'd worked out, Lilly sits in front of me. With one hand on the ground to steady herself, and the other's fingers lightly brushing between her legs, hidden by her dark blue underwear, I think it's the most erotic sight I've ever seen.

Once again I reach out and brush her hair from her face, her chin tilting outwards as she fills her pleasure-wrapped body with another breath of air.

Lilly...

Lilly looks oddly cute as she smile at my calling of her name. It always seems like it's at the moments when she's least attentive that she lets her most interesting emotions slip out.

It's not long before she works her fingers over herself faster than before, her excitement evidently rising, the scent of her sweat in the air only echoing that fact.

I sit in front of her. It's hardly as if my own arousal's holding still; it's taking every fiber of my being to let her continue by herself instead of pushing myself on top of her.

It's strange... I'd initially found her clouded blue eyes to be distracting, almost disturbing in their lack of focus. That bothers me far less than it used to, now.

My attention refocuses on her as she lets out a whimper, her breath coming much faster than before and her hips subtly rocking.

For only a scant few second she tightens, huddled in ecstasy her body relaxes and a long, drained sigh comes from her lips.

Hisao...

When she reaches out to brush my face, my urges take complete control of my body. Without so much as a second thought, I push myself over her frame.

It's an unusual feeling, being like this. I feel oddly powerful, holding myself above her blank face. As though, for the first time since the accident so long ago, I feel physically strong.

Cake.....

Lilly...I want you.

To my surprise, she smiles weakly before reaching upwards to feel the side of my face. It's an almost cheeky expression, of the kind which she usually gives only after getting something out of me.

You... wanted me to do this?

She holds her smile and gives a silent nod. I guess it was an effective way to make me take the initiative for once.

I told you... to keep it on... didn't I?

CAAAAAAAAkeeeeeeee~

That teasing edge to Lilly's voice, punctuated by her breathing...she never seems to lose her ability to take control of a situation.

But this time... this one time...

Ah, Hisao!? What are you-?

I slide my hands underneath her, soft silk and skin pressing into my hands as I gently raise her body, with a measure of difficulty.

While I wouldn't describe her as heavy... her weight makes her more than a handful to try and lift.

It only takes a couple of carefully placed steps to feel the edge of her bed against my legs, my lowering of Lilly onto her sheets just as gentle as when I raised her.

Your bed will be more comfortable than the floor, right?

Always the gentleman, aren't you?

I quickly run my hands down Lilly's long, shapely legs, their allure far from diminished without the luxury of sight, and pull off her pajama shorts and underwear from her ankle.

I have no idea where those just went...

Well, I guess it doesn't matter. They'll be somewhere around.

With a minimum of fuss, I shuffle down my own pajama trousers and underwear, positioning myself between her legs. Or at least, where I think is between her legs.

With one hand on her bed to steady myself, my right moves tentatively downwards.

Uh, whoops. My first contact with her is my palm clumsily meeting the front of her nose.

She giggles a little before turning her head sideways. Taking my cue, I gently cradle her cheek and use my thumb to feel the contours of her face as she so often does with me.

This would be a lot easier if she wasn't moving her face into my hand, but the feeling of her nuzzling into it is nice.

I swallow to try and steady myself, take my other hand from the bed and use it to guide myself into her.

As soon as I feel her warmth around me, I quickly realize just how turned on I am.

With my sight gone I'm free to concentrate far more on my other senses, including tactile feeling. The entire experience feels more vivid, more intense than it's been before.

Cakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

I slowly start to move my hips back and forth, my heart beating wildly in excitement.

I feel Lilly's eyes clenching shut, the movement of her cheek under my thumb reminding me of the gentle hold i have on the side of her face.

It's hard to stop myself from being completely overwhelmed. It's hard to think that this is what sex is usually like for her, experienced through every sense but the one I hold dearest.

From her cheek to her neck, I begin to slide my hand downwards to take in the feeling of her body.

The contours of her collarbone... the light dew resting on her skin...

My sense of smell is stimulated by the scent of her sweat and mine hanging in the air.
Even the ambient smell, noticeably different from that of my own room, adds to the feeling.

When I move my hand to her supple breast, her soft mewling fills my ears, along with the sound of our act.

The skin under my hand moves back and forth with each thrust, my grip on it tightening as my lust for the near-naked body of Lilly before me grows.

I can even feel her small nipple against my palm. My hand slides further and my fingers pluck it through the thin silk of her pajama top.

Her whimpering sounds turn to moans as she fills with the same pleasure as I. I can feel my heart beating loudly in my chest, and her own beating underneath my hand.

Cake?

I can feel her hands clasp my wrists, their grip surprisingly tight as her chest rises in overwhelming pleasure.

More... I want more...

Cakeeeeeeee~

I can feel my chest tightening as I rock back and forth frantically, both of us entirely taken with ourselves.

Caa-ke! AH! You better stop now before it's-

ED: SHIT.

Nothing... that unusual... I just need to take deeper breaths to steady...myself...

ED: !!!!

This feeling is just... normal...

ED: You're fucked. Literally.

ED:

This isn't...I can't...this pain is too much...!

 

[Destroid]

Tidy your desk.

 

[Darth Roxor]

what is this i dont even

 

[LundB]

Blood type?


That level of detail is only slightly less disturbing than buying a birthday cake for a fictional character.

 

[TheEntitledOne]

Blood type?


That level of detail is only slightly less disturbing than buying a birthday cake for a fictional character.

[Weaboo Lore] Apparently blood type has some kind of esoteric meaning for the japs, like a zodiac sign. It's not uncommon to see it in this kind of games.