Pink Eye
Monk
You remind me of my brother. He didn't like certain foods. But when you trick him into eating them. He realizes it wasn't so bad. And actually likes them. In other words. I think you just played the wrong games. Go play Age of Decadence. It will prepare you for the awesomeness of Colony Ship: A Post-Earth Role Playing Game! Then you can sort yourself out by playing some Knights of the Chalice. Afterwards, brush your teeth with some Dark Sun and Ravenloft.