Chapter 6.18: Home is Where the Heart is
You can't do it. Even though you don't remember their names, they are - they were - your first friends. Even if they weren't real, you cannot bring yourself to do it, not after what had happened to them. Losing them had brought you to where you stand today. If you cut them down, you would be killing a part of yourself. Releasing your hand from the hilt of Anbar-Shi, you look the girl straight in the eye and state your refusal.
"No, I'm not playing this game."
"Why not? Why?" The children begin crying. "Play it. Play with us. Kill us."
The crybaby runs over to you, pulling at your hand. The next thing you know, he has bitten into it. Shocked and angry, you try to shake him off, but he is strong. He looks up at you with his blood-stained teeth and grins. "Kill me, Ean." Then, he bites again, and the swarm of children descend upon you. You have no choice - you fling them away with your mind, but these were not real children; they would not be hurt by that. You knew that, but you couldn't act. They come again, and again, each time ripping away strips of flesh from your body.
You could've killed them. You would've killed them, once they started attacking. You don't even know why you didn't, as every time you raise your hand it is slowed by some unknown force. Your blows become taps. The crushing force of your mind becomes nothing more than a squeeze. Desperate, you attempt to figure out how they are restraining you, when the realization hits home. Somehow, your choice was being magnified, to a ridiculous extent. A refusal to kill had become a refusal to kill no matter what, and had you decided to kill them, you had no doubt you would have lost control over yourself almost immediately. Though you had not sensed their psychic presence, somehow they were affecting your mind.
Standing here was no option either. You finally manage to free yourself from the jaws of the children, and you flee into the corridor, hoping that you would be able to think better if you were not being chewed up. As you ran, the colour faded from the walls, and the texture turned smooth. Your face emerged from the ceiling, its teeth bared.
"KILL. PLAY."
"No!"
"THEN. LOSE."
Your next step is taken into emptiness. The ground had opened up into a giant, human mouth - if you looked at it from further away, you would have recognized it as your own. As you fall, the teeth close over your body; it closes over your neck, and your head pops off.
"Ah."
***
You woke up with a start. You were in your own bed, back in Ankida. Fukayna was besides you, holding your son in her arms.
"Your majesty, did you have a bad dream?"
You shake your head. You don't remember what happened when you were asleep, but something was... ah.
"This is not Ankida." you sigh.
"Clever man." Fukayna grins. "You lost the first game. Now for the second. I am infinitely patient. I am infinitely kind. You have infinite chances to win the game."
"It's not a very fun game. I refuse."
"Ah, so you lose again."
The room turns white and melts down all around you. Then there was ripping, and tearing, and blood... your blood.
***
You are in Heliopolis. Akil comes through the door, smiling. "So, you woke up."
"How many times are we going to do this?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Don't play dumb."
"Ah, well... Forever, if that's what it takes for you to win."
"Never going to happen. If I win, I lose."
"Yes," agreed the fake Akil. "If you win, you will lose. If you lose, you win. You get to enjoy this wonderful home I've created for you. I will show you all the precious people and places you know, and remind you of your memories with them. Over, and over, and over."
"Ha, sorry, but I've no interest in fakes."
"Then end it. Kill me."
"No."
"It's your loss, then."
Great white spikes shoot out from the walls and floor and ceiling and impale you, tearing your body apart.
***
Akkad. Sargon sits before you on his throne, a big grin on his face. "You are a wonderful toy. No matter how many times I play with you, you never break. Now then, you've killed me before. You can kill me again."
"I've killed you once, I don't see the need to kill you again."
"Fool."
Before you realize what has happened, your arms are gone. And then, your legs. The walls took them. The soldiers descend upon you, mouths wide open, teeth bared...
***
You won't surrender. You won't allow your spirit to be broken. The sphere can torture you for as long as it wants, but as long as you still draw breath, you have not truly lost. Eventually, you will find a way to win - you will find a way to return home.
In the never-ending cycles of death and revival, pain and anguish, you bide your time, waiting for your chance...
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