it's not
been clean and sobre from cocaine, heroin and crack for the last 5 months of 2014, the entirety of 2015 and onwards. that is actually why i am so fat
i took the divorce very hard and tried to kill myself twice by pill overdose, then i totaled my car against a lamppost and a wall, and then i spent about the entirety of 2013 and the 1st half of 2014 trying to kill myself via crack and heroin. eventually things reached the point where i simply cut off all contact with every single person i knew, since every person i knew was a drug addict, and moved back in w/ my parents and have been eating like a pig and focusing on other things (such as translating wizardry games, for example) ever since.
here is a picture of me in sixth grade, top-right corner:
here is a picture of me when I was 18, just after high-school graduation; far-left all in black and with motherfucking
tinted glasses:
here is a picture of my biggest accomplishment in life, participating and being runner-up in the Blockbuster 1995 video game championship regionals:
here is a picture of me about 2 years into my ex marriege, i believe circa 2012 when i was working as asist. manager of the electronics dept. @ the local k-mart, and also this is the best shape i have ever been in my entire life as i was drug-free, eating ealthy, in love, and working out regularly:
(OBVIOUSLY THAT IS MY MOM)
here is an intermission; some pictures from back in the day of the ole RPGCodex crew:
here is a picture of me some months after the divorce, once i had started smoking crack:
circa 2014, full-on junkie, trying to fill my bunghole with girls half my age by offering them cocaine:
here is a picture of me doing what i love most, but have not done ever since going into seclusion because it is hard for me to dissassociate billiards from cocaine use:
doing the thing i love most after billiards and Wizardry, circa 2014 as well, i.e. full on junkie:
picture of me right this moment (uploading to photobucket... 1 sec....):